Ok. I got about ~30 minutes in before I checked out of the assignment. After making this initial post: What Kind of World Do We Live In? - #66 by Eternity, I got stuck mentally to comment on the other posts. I spent the rest of my time thinking on why I had issues with this assignment.
In no particular order:
1.) Some of the stuff I think I could’ve commented on/wanted to comment on were too long to consume in the 60 minute time limit. Other stuff that was much more reasonable to comment on, like the tiktoks, stressed me out a little because of the need to form an opinion within the time limit.
2.) I have an issue with overthinking. I think in the context of tutoring I’ve gotten better at not overthinking the stuff I’m doing but when it comes to stuff outside of tutoring I still have the issue. I tried to tell myself that the posts don’t necessarily need to be “good”, its an assignment just post. Relatedly:
3.) Broadly I have an issue sharing my thoughts on stuff. Its not the having or writing thoughts thats the problem. My note organization for stuff I’ve personally commented on that you’ve shared in my notes is poor, but I have commented a good bit on stuff. Just nothing that I’ve shared. This is why some my first CF posts was responding to stuff that sounded like assignments. I didn’t have to think too much on posting something of value in my head, I just had to do an assignment and share. Easy.
There are a lot of scenarios in my life where if asked for my opinion I have trouble sharing it. For example, at work I can talk to my coworkers and boss about some ideas I have for work, but the moment it becomes a meeting and I’m expected to share I struggle to get a thought out (the important thing here is thought out, I do have thoughts and opinions on stuff in the meeting). Maybe it’s kind of similar to how I here that people will have a bunch of medical concerns but the moment they’re put in front of a doctor they have nothing to say.
Hmm. I could it put like this: when it comes to posting I don’t do it much because I stress about my posts being of value. Not necessarily perfect. I don’t have an issue with my writing being messy (in terms of sharing stuff, I should try and make my writing clear) or anything like that. I just stress about writing something pointless. An example here I could share is related to this post:
I was looking into my eye condition and found some stuff about it that I think I could relate to the above post, but then I started overthinking on the issue. I was like how much do I have to research about my condition to share, do I have to look at research?, etc. Personally I do have my own thoughts already written on this, but I don’t know if they’re good enough, on topic enough, etc. to share.