Toxic Attitudes about Greatness

I can binge read your stuff. But I don’t binge posting, doing projects or practicing. Which I think is due to:

  1. Takes more effort
  2. I’m less sure about what to do. Just reading is straightforward
  3. Probably some preoccupation with posting only high quality posts and not appearing dumb

I’ve gotten way better at 3, but I’m not perfect at it either. I think it isn’t my bottleneck, but it could be.

2 applies a lot to projects. I feel that my projects aren’t proper. I think projects ought to be more like “learn skill X and verify by getting it right 99% of the time”, but my projects are more like “go through the material”. I feel like I don’t know what goals to set, what success criteria to set and what plan to make. And so I don’t really want to start planning a project because I’m not sure what to do and the project planning I usually do doesn’t seem good enough. Although the end result of the projects seem good.

Also I could’ve read more if I didn’t:

By “heavy analysis” I meant a thorough analysis. Like I can’t just pick out parts of an article and focus on that, I have to analyze pretty much everything. I think that’s a bad perfectionist attitude.