I think I do.
This doesn’t make sense to me as well. Why am I not motivated about doing something that can make my life better? I don’t have an answer to this.
I don’t care much about conforming and fitting in. It might be the case that I don’t believe that doing better is realistic or I don’t understand that how better life could be if I got the process of continual improvement going. Maybe I just want to know some smart things that I can show off to other people in my surrounding so that I can feel superior.