More LO from today.
It’s the twilight, he thought; I hate the twilight.
Here, Eddie is already giving up somewhat, despite his attempt at self-discipline (in the same paragraph), and despite knowing he needs to solve this problem.
Eddie isn’t the type to give up easily. He’s been facing this problem for years, and failing. That’s taken a toll on his fighting spirit.
Why does this show that Eddie’s giving up? Not sure yet. From AS with some context:
Eddie Willers pulled his shoulders straight, in conscientious self-discipline. He had to stop this, he thought; he was beginning to imagine things. Had he always felt it? He was thirty-two years old. He tried to think back. No, he hadn’t; but he could not remember when it had started. The feeling came to him suddenly, at random intervals, and now it was coming more often than ever. It’s the twilight, he thought; I hate the twilight.
So he’s blaming the twilight for his fear, dread, unease. He’s giving up on figuring out what the problem rly is. But twilight happens every day – how can the sun setting be responsible for the unease, esp when he’s just admitted to himself that the feeling hasn’t always been there? He’s giving up by saying/believing something that makes no sense. He’s evading whatever it is causing the feeling.
The danger is bad philosophy, and it takes good philosophy to protect values like food.
I hadn’t ever really thought of something like food being a value. I guess that implied in food as a value is like reliable and adequate supply of food.
Are values, like, unlimited in number? Like, I could have lots and lots of values: food, shelter, coding, climbing, writing, quality sleep, good methods of approaching problems, etc.
And how do values and principles relate to each-other? They are related, but you can’t have an unlimited number of principles. Values need to be compatible (non-contradictory) with principles, but do they need to be derived from them? I don’t think so, like there’s room for ppl to have different values – the heroes in AS have different values, which plays out in their choices (like Ragnar’s choice of what to do is explicitly mentioned as something other heroes disagree with).
This is one of many uses of light-related words for positive symbolism.
Reminds me of an AS quote – I liked “the sunlight from the water” enough to write that bit down.
She did not want to look at Francisco. She felt that his presence seemed more intensely real when she kept her eyes away from him, almost as if the stressed awareness of herself came from him, like the sunlight from the water.
“stressed awareness of herself” is the sunlight, and Francisco is the water (mirror). The awareness itself (knowledge, or the enablement of knowledge) is the good thing here. You need good people around you to bring out the best in yourself. Well, it helps, at least.
Note: check descriptions of Galt later – does sunlight illuminate him, or is he the sunlight?
Glowing like the sun is good, but being harsh is bad. Right? So apparently there’s a contradiction here! The negativity people have towards harshness is something Rand questions.
Science labs and hospitals are two places that have harsh lighting, and both are places where how well one can see really matters. Other descriptions of that lighting are cold and bright. Ppl often like their homes to have soft, warm, dim lighting – that makes homes feel more comfortable, welcoming, etc. Ppl who are negative towards harshness are probs positive towards soft, warm, comforting words instead – this makes sense and the analogy holds WRT ideas, thinking, science, etc.
We’ll find out more about Dagny Taggart later, and be able to judge for ourselves in what ways she is and isn’t harsh, and whether that’s good. (Note you’ll have to remember to consider this issue again later. You’ll learn more if you take notes to keep track of issues to revisit.)
Note: look for when Dagny is harsh or not and about what.
The words were harsh and glowing, like the sunlight. He listened in admiration and in wonder. When he was asked what he would want to do, he answered at once, “Whatever is right,” and added, “You ought to do something great… I mean, the two of us together.” “What?” she asked. He said, “I don’t know. That’s what we ought to find out. Not just what you said. Not just business and earning a living. Things like winning battles, or saving people out of fires, or climbing mountains.” “What for?” she asked.
Most ppl would see What for? as like a confrontational thing that means someone is taking an opposing side or something. Maybe not in the context of long-time friends, but definitely in general.
Dagny asking this is notable for two reasons:
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it matters that there’s a purpose behind actions and what that purpose is. Eddie is suggesting that winning battles, saving ppl, or climbing mountains are things satisfying “Whatever is right” and “something great”, and that they should do those things together. He wants to achieve things, but doesn’t know what they are (“whatever”, “something”). He’s sorta honest that he doesn’t know, but he’s just falling back to other ppl’s answers without trying to understand what’s behind those decisions. Also, Eddie cares more about doing something with Dagny than he does about what it is or why he should – he’s dishonest about that (he values her but doesn’t say it, which is why she can’t love him like HR/JG).
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Dagny, by comparison to Eddie, is more honest about not knowing answers to big/hard questions and doesn’t try to leap to answers before having a better understanding of the right questions to ask. But she also has already given an answer – but we don’t get that dialog. Instead we get Eddie’s POV: “the one precious companion of his childhood told him what they would do when they grew up.” (emph mine). I think Eddie might not remember what Dagny said there (in part because he works for TT), but the dialog that he does remember is about stuff that didn’t happen (winning battles / saving ppl) – the stuff he thinks he’s missed out on. Maybe that’s why he’s so protective of it.
Eddie is described “He listened in admiration and in wonder.” but he disagrees with Dagny about something: “Not just what you said.”
I think he still values those things. He still wants those things and isn’t willing to give them up. That’s why he never gets to GG.